Have you ever found yourself wondering what your purpose was? I used to constantly wonder why I existed, what was I put here to do? Gradually over time I noticed that I always tried to help people, and then one day it became crystal clear–that was my purpose. I’ve tried to go thru life, and just stay in my own lane…but I can’t.
My most recent journey has been my journey to better health– I wrote briefly in a previous post about my wake up call. I truly believe my wake up call saved my life!!! I am now using my journey to try to inspire, and support others. I know what it’s like to have never been skinny (ya know when someone who has always been relatively small, talks about their weight loss journey…and you are just over here like ahhh you only had 20 pounds to lose, try having 143 to lose and then let’s talk–that’s a real struggle), I know what it’s like to have my body fight my weight loss efforts– I have PCOS, I know what it’s like to be surrounded by people whom you adore and who adore you, but yet you feel alone, I know what it’s like to find comfort in food, I know what it’s like to buy big clothes, to wonder if you will fit on an amusement ride, to accept the sack of potatoes you’ve become, to be judged by your appearance, to be teased, ridiculed, to be told you’d be so pretty if you lost some weight, I know what it’s like to be your own biggest enemy, to be the queen of excuses, to have never worn a bikini in public, to not be able to get a shower and have the towel wrap all the way around you… the list is endless, and I am familiar with the way each of these things leaves your heart feeling. I am a much different person than I was 2 months ago… I’ve discovered an inner strength I didn’t know I had, a passion, a will power, the drive to hit my goals. Our bodies are capable of so much more then we give them credit for.
So you are probably wondering what this has to do with your purpose? God gives us more then we can handle, encouraging us to include him in our lives and plans, and through him we are given the strength to handle what we initially thought was the impossible. Often I pray that God uses me to spread his word, and to make a difference, and I have to think that this situation was God’s way of answering my prayers. I am not perfect on my journey, and I don’t claim to be. I do have a lot of passion, and a big heart. I am focused on helping myself, and helping others become the best version of themselves– none of this would be possible without Christ who strengthens me.
Now get out there and help someone!
If you are on a weight loss journey, please check out my fitness blog periodically for updates: choosetolivedontweight.wordpress.com, I also have a Facebook page called, Choose to live don’t weight, and if you need fitness help, I can be emailed at: choosetolivedontweight@gmail.com
God Bless,
Jackie
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