It's been way to long since I sat here and wrote. My life has changed a lot in the last month or so. I was recently promoted within my organization to a position I've been working YEARS for. I traded a 1/2 hour commute for nearly an hour. I'm no longer the "one of the best" in my role– and this has been a little hard for me, I am used to excelling and right now I am filled with a little self doubt but I KNOW MY GOD WILL DELIVER. The beauty about Jesus is he will always have my back. I will learn my position and I will excel, I have no choice but to do good…failure is not an option.
I had a nice holiday with my family, my family is my WORLD…I am getting ready for the New Year, but I don't really have normal resolutions this year…I obviously want to be healthy, get healthy, etc… but I am committing to:
- Reading my devotional EVERYDAY
- Putting GOD 1st
- Not worrying
- Staying in constant prayer, pray about everything
- Unplug more (with my new role I am always plugged in, and in the day and age of Facebook–I am going to have to learn to say hold the phone!!!)
- Be more present with friends and family
- Spend more time with loved ones
- Read at least 2 books a month (I am aiming for a book a week)
- Learn about wine and enjoy it
- Cook more (Like really cook)
- Bake for others more
- Find ways to bless others
- Write a lot more
I'd also like to be more organized, better dressed, and tap into my creativity a little more.
Looking forward to writing again very soon!
There's been so much going on in my life…It's been and up and down roller coaster… God has been doing amazing things in my life– or I should saying putting me in amazing places, I just have to be still and let him place me where he wants me! Sometimes you just have to take your hands off the wheel and ask Jesus to take over. Believe it or not, I thought I could guide myself through this crazy thing called life– about a month ago it dawned on me that the motions I've been going thru weren't getting me where I wanted to be. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over with no results– and I'm very results driven so I need to see results to feel a sense of contentment. I remember laying in bed practically in tears asking God to fix the way I've felt, ever since then things have been changing and for the better… Unfortunately at this point I can only share a small portion of the excitement with you–but I promise when my blessings come I will let you know!!! I am claiming God's blessings, this is going to my year– I feel it, I think I was just looking in the wrong direction all along. My husband and I started a business in July and we had our first big sale last month which was absolutely amazing– someone reached out to us, we didn't pursue them!!!! In case you are wondering what kind of business we started, its a promotional marketing company, we specialize in helping companies get the attention they deserve with the use of promotional marketing items! You can check out our website at : http://www.jrayspromotions.com, our website does not show even 1/4 of what we have to offer, we have over 8000 items available and we deal with over 260 companies to find the best price and highest quality for our clients! I am not trying to sell anything to any of my readers or followers– just want to share a little about one of my new passions.
Any way the title is "Old Soul"…. I had to catch you all up on what this old soul has been up to. But more on why I feel like an old soul, for years I've known I was an old soul, but some days its more prevalent than others. Today is one of those days, as I sat here tonight and drank a whole pot of coffee listening to old classic rock songs, I realized I am really not the typical 31 year old. I am cautious sometimes to a fault, I watch what I do as to not injure myself, I like to make home cooked meals, I don't like the bar, I like to go to church, I like to have my towels neatly folded, I don't like to live out of a basket, I like our lawn nicely manicured, I almost always opt for French tips when I get my nails done, I get my hair highlighted to cover up the gray, I don't really blast my music anymore, and most recently I've taken a liking to BINGO.
I have a lot of my mind, so I plan one writing again very soon– it might even directly follow this post… (which actually in an effort to be transparent I started a few weeks ago, so I had to tweak it just a bit).
Well I started writing this Sunday… and here we are at 11:30 PM on a Wednesday evening…
Originally written Sunday…
I’m sitting here at my kitchen table waiting for my Cinnamon Buns to rise so I can put them in the oven…I thought I’d picked a recipe in which I wouldn’t have to wait for them to rise…Oh boy was I wrong, an hour to rise, and then construct them, and then let them rise another half hour…I picked the recipe that uses a box of cake mix as part of the ingredients because it seemed like the easiest choice on this sleepy Sunday Morning… I definitely would have picked another recipe if I had of read this one in it’s entirety before I committed to making it… I guess we’ll see how it comes out, these were intended to be breakfast today–at this rate it’ll be lunch.
I suppose life is much like my Cinnamon Buns, you really don’t know how it’s going to turn out you just hope and pray for the best. Two people can follow life’s recipe but if Person (1) adds a little extra sugar, and Person (2) doesn’t put enough sugar in they have a whole different tasting cinnamon bun!!!
Fast forward to Wednesday… The buns came out okay, but not cooked enough in the middle, but in their defense, my patience was running thin…I just wanted to take them out of the oven. Does your patience run thin in life? I know mine often does…But I am learning everything is God’s timing. You need to cherish every second, and be thankful for what you are blessed with and what you aren’t blessed with. Not everything is for everyone, I no longer pray for what I want, I pray for what God wants me to have, God knows what is best for me. I pray for God to use me, in what ever mission he has in mind. My heart and mind is open, and I am learning to listen when he’s trying to speak to me. So next time you are rushing perfection (God’s timing), sit back and just enjoy the ride…The big man upstairs has it all figured out.